Is it really that tough?

Its gonna be 3 years next week.

I've got feelings that I can't explain .. even to myself ..

I dunno if its called 'not being able to get over some one' or is it just plain .. 'stuck up bitch'?!

Its not like I haven't tried .. I've tried .. a hell LOT. Yes , even 'dating' other guys. But it just didn't work.

I then realised, even if I 'date' a guy , I need to 'like' him, in order to forget the past.But that spark isn't there in me anymore.

I'm living .. I'm fine .. Its just that .. I very often feel, that there's something missing from my chest.

Not just emotionally, I've even hurt myself PHYSICALLY for him .. Yes .. I'm one of those crazy girls .. who have cut open their wrists .. drank waay too much alcohol .. in order to forget him for that ONE moment.
I've done all that.. & yet .. here I am .. writing in my blog about HIM.

Its kind of weird .. coz we are still very much .. the best of friends .. & I know, nothings' gonna happen now & he reallllyyy likes his present girl .. but somehow .. its impossible for me to get him outta my system.
He's like a drug to me .
I need him to be alive.
I know it is way tooo stupid, but it is the truth.

I found this quote online, it kind of justifies what I think ..

''It's like my mind knows what's right but my heart is being retarded and still cares.''

Pretty much true, eh ?
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What IS Politics?

I often wonder what politics is all about?
Well .. I did want to know about it in detail but my mother dear did NOT let me take Politics as a major ! )= She said its a bad field.

What is the definition of politics? Or rather, what do WE think Politics is ? We think of it as something bad, something evil , something that is ruining our society.
Sadly, I think, THIS is the case in India. Not that I'm against our system .. or maybe I just am. FINE. ¬_¬

I feel .. India .. needs more of YOUTH in the system than the oldies sitting there and THINKING more than TAKING ACTIONS. I am aware of the fact that older people have more experience and blah blah blah BUT its high time that some serious stuff is done!

We don't need really rich people in politics ( it just won't help!)
We don't need really poor people in there ( well, MONEYYYY ! )
We don't need really old people there ( omg ! I am elected !!!I'm soo happy I'm
jumping !!! -3 hours later, BREAKING NEWS- ''Mantriji ki sadme ki wajah se maut!'' ~~END OF STORY~~)

We don't need really young people ( They'll prolly start KILLING the corrupt
minsters! Not that its a bad idea or something but the death toll would just increase! )

We don't need really religious/holy people ( well .. break the mosque, make a temple! break the temple, make a church! , break the church, make a gurudwara and again and again ! *phew*)


We don't need really famous celebs ( we're voting for a government and not
any movie awards ! )

All we need is COMMON people. People who can understand other people. People who won't stand in elections to get famous or to attain fame but people who really want to do something for their country. People who still love their country.
We need people ..
who believe that HUMANITY comes before any other religion.

Where are these people ??
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Woops !

Omg ! Its been a lifetime since I updated this one ! I don't promise... but yes ... I will try my best .. to keep it as much updated as possible .. mind you .. I might get a bit annoying at times ! [ ;